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Confusion

I don't know what I want. How great is that. Now that I have what I've been aching for, I'm not even sure if I like it. Is that weird? It's so silly, and absurd. It's like, the moment I turned 20 everything has become so final, like every decision I make has to be the right one.

I don't know, I shouldn't put up with this. A part of me doesn't even want me.. I feel bitter and I hate myself and you for it. I'm trying to forgive and forget, but it's really not as simple as you may think it is.

I hope I figure this out, soon. Before I get too deeply entangled again.. You showed up again right when I was at the point where I could've been okay, I had almost figured out how to do this on my own..

10:46 a.m. - 2009-01-21

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