the-elm's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Staring competition with the computer screen Have you ever gotten that horrible, cloying feeling of inadequacy? Like you just don't make the cut, and like everything you do is just a waste of time? I'm starting to feel that way a lot.. And it makes me feel like shit. I hate it. Anyhow, went on a 4 day long road trip up north where the weather was sooo gooood.. It was cold, like close to snowing and it rained so hard everyday. I loved it. Rain is just beautiful and I love everything about it. Although for most people and even in most literature rain is symbolic of melancholic moods and sadness in general, but rain makes me happy. But this is probably because Pakistan is like an oven, and so any rain is a welcome break. My life is beginning to stagnate. Same boring routine every bloody day. Sometimes it makes me want to jump off the roof, just for a change. Even my internship at Rising Sun (a school for the physically and mentally disabled) is boring, even though I get to see all my friends and Js. Everything's just become very boring for me, you know, even Js (I'm sorry but it's true). I think I probably kill him with boredom too. We just don't seem to click anymore. But that's a whole different topic altogether. Anyway, can you feel the stagnation in this entry? Isn't it just oozing from every word. If you've actually gotten this far, then I salute you. Congratulations, you have no life either. Mass suicide anyone? 2:28 p.m. - 2006-07-27 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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