the-elm's Diaryland Diary

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lost and confused..

So i shed all the tears I had to, and wept for all the things that I won't ever get, and those that I have lost, and those that I fear losing..

I'm just so scared, and i feel like there is no one in this world who can help me..

haha isn't it funny how i'm listening to pink floyd's comfortably numb right now?

Hello.
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone home?

Come on, now.
I hear you’re feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain,
Get you on your feet again.

Relax.

yeah.. i wish. but i don't think so.

All this pressure i feel, like what is to become of me in university and where i end up going.. it's all self-imposed. my friends tell me to relax and chill out, that worrying about it is only going to make me feel worse and that everything will work out. But those are just soothing words that have no meaning, and they hold no promise for me. It just feels like everything keeps going downhill.

i'm wracked with guilt, regrets and confusion.. oh, what have i done to myself and my life. (is it all a big mistake?)

i don't know what to think anymore.. and i don't know what to do any more..

2:58 p.m. - 2006-04-01

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